Encountering Christ

So today is the second day of many things: my Christmas Break, being alone all day, not talking to my boyfriend, and getting my life in order.

I never realized how hard this was going to be for me. It's hard for me to not to hear from him and to know how his day is going and to hear that he missed me. I miss hearing his voice. But I know that this something I have and need to do right now. After talking things out with a few friends, I feel encouraged and know that I will be able to make it through this. How can I not make it through? I have God on my side and that is what is going to get me through this time.

My goal for the next week or so is to get my life in order - to get my priorities where God wants them, not where I want them. My goal is to make God the center of my life, my focus. Ultimately he is the goal; he is what I am striving for. I think my life has been clogged up with focusing on school, getting good grades, my health, friends, family, the stresses of being 20 years old, and my boyfriend. G0d was finally able to grab my attention and asked, "What about me? Where do I fall in your life?"

So that's where I am right now; trying to figure out where God falls in my life. I realize that I need to be head over heels in love with Christ. I need to learn to rely on him fully - to give him my worries, fears, stresses, joys, everything.

It all started Sunday at church when the pastor started a new series entitled "Encountering Christ." Basically, he spilled himself out to the congregation and shared what he was going through right now and how he needed to encounter Christ. Ever since Sunday, I have been thinking that not only do I need to encounter Christ, but I want to. So that's my goal for my Christmas Break - to encounter Christ. And in order for me to do that, I have to give up some things. This is the hardest thing I have ever done in my entire life and at times I don't feel like I am going to make it. But I just keep telling myself that with God on my side, I can do anything.

So that's my life right now. Getting my life in order so that God is number one! It's going to be a hard road to travel down, but it won't get lonely and I will travel down it till it stops and God is where he needs to be in my life.